Diary of Love, Faith, Hope, and Victory!

The battle is not yours, it's the Lord's. Whenever you feel like giving up, remember that your strength comes from the Lord. Photo Taken on May 2019 at Melbourne, Australia Dear Jesus, son of God, have mercy on me, a sinner. Jesus Save me, love me, heal my body. I surrender my life to you. Guide me in all my small steps going to our greatest victory and tell me what to do as I continue. "Bahala na po kyo sa akin." I love you, Jesus. I love you, Mama Mary and Saint Joseph, please pray for me. Amen *Sol Dayo Albar* PRAYER TO ST. JOSEPH Over 1900 years old O St. Joseph whose protection is so great, so strong, so prompt before the Throne of God, I place in you all my interests and desires. O St. Joseph do assist me by your powerful intercession and obtain for me from your Divine Son all spiritual blessings through Jesus Christ, Our Lord; so that having engaged here below your Heavenly power I may offer my thanksgiving and homage to the Loving of Fathers. O St. Joseph, I ...

Today, I had another pleasant morning to have the sunshine going inside our Master's bedroom. Recently it's not always sunny, most of the time it's a gloomy day with rain shower the whole day. Thank you, Vitamin D for making my skin red again. Vitamin D is free, why not take a lot of it and be thankful to God, how wonderful to receive his freebies every day.  God's message for me today: Isiah 30: 18-19 Thank you, Kim and Ganryu for always having me in our morning ritual. Kim is my buddy while having a Vitamin D ritual. "Lusog -lusog ng mga dede nya, punong puno ng milk." How wonderful to have my Ganryu for a year. "Naka one year old ka na bunso, naka one year na tayo kasama pa rin kita mag pa araw sa umaga. Salamat bunso." My Defender! Ate Lilia, gave me this plant long time ago. It's has a good sign for me. Sabi ni Tony, yesterday close pa ito, the whole night namukadkad siya, mabango at kakaiba, anong name kaya niya? Let me share my little stor...

Today, Tony got my specimen at LPDH the staff there was cooperative. They call me right away after they finally prepare my slide disk and wax specimen for KRAS and NRAS test at St. Lukes's. We need to pay the refundable deposit amount of PHP3,000.00 to get the specimen.  The same day we traveled from south to north. We arrive timely at St. Lukes Hospital. All went smooth and light. Thank you so much, for the guidance Lord. We need to wait for 2 to 3 weeks for the result. In the meantime, t ime to get relaxation while waiting for the result.  There’s always a silver lining. My journey is not easy, I need to go on with so much patience, humbleness, positivity, prayers, and faith in all the things that we are doing.  My health and my life are a big blessing, a priceless blessing. One day I will be completely healed and will be a blessing again to my family and loved ones and to all the people who love me as a blessing to their life. I am grateful for all of your love, prayer...

Be strong, courageous Sol, I understand, preparing for the unknown is not easy. Give me the strength to accept the things I cannot change. The Serenity Prayer God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change. Courage to change the things I can, and wisdom to know the difference. Living one day at a time. Enjoying one moment at a time. Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace. Trusting that He will make all things right if I surrender to His Will. So that I may be reasonably happy in this life And supremely happy with Him Forever and ever in the next. Amen. Salamat sa guidance Lord. Stage 4 cancer is the most severe form of cancer. Metastatic cancer is another name for stage 4 cancer because the disease has usually spread far in the body, or metastasized. Stage 4 cancer is the severest form of cancer. It has the highest risk of mortality. However, stage 4 cancer is not always terminal. God bless me, my husband, my son, my doctor, nurses, and all the people who gave me t...

The 18th cycle is like my 18th Birthday. Today, January 5, 2021, is the 1st day to start my Stivarga. My doctor's protocol was changed for my 18th Chemo Cycle, the 3rd set of Chemo medicines combination of Stivarga.  January 11, 2021, I was not able to finish my 18th cycle due to severe side effects. After 6 days all chemo medicines are stopped. I am subject to another blood chem laboratory and scan test for further evaluation.  January 16, 2021, I need to see Doctor Ignacio for further evaluation of my physical condition. He gave us further instructions on what to do next to continue my treatment. Maraming Salamat po Doc Ignacio for not giving up to cure me. I sometimes lost my inner strength, but with your positive outlook on life and spirituality, I gain another wisdom.  I am grateful to Tony that he was able to manage all my side effects. I am really in my worst situation then but he remains calm, prayerful, loving, supportive, and positive. Big thanks to my big siste...

They do say you appreciate the simple things a lot more with cancer.  For the first month of my 2nd set of new medicines, I wore a different wig. My family and close friends thought it was great when I showcased Blondie, Sportie, Cutie, and Kikay around (I put names on my wig). But the wigs were hot and uncomfortable if you don't have any hair at all and I feared I was slowing my hair growth by covering my scalp. So I ditched the wigs unless I have official important appointments. It took me weeks to pluck up the courage to stop wearing my wig (also hot and itchy) around, but eventually, I unveiled my naked scalp with my uneven sprouting hairs and bald crown and skulked self-consciously around our home avoiding people’s gaze. One of my sissies used to call me via FB with a camera, she requested to me to please always put on my hijab since she's not used to seeing me as a talking egg. Hehehe. Braving my head was terrifying. Thanks to my compassionate Oncology Doctor for sharing ...

Read More:  Facebook Memories "Journey of Love, Faith, Hope, and Rainbow" October 15, 2019  In case I die unexpectedly, and I will be gone forever, let my simple thoughts be yours, for as long as someone cares I will always live in their hearts.  I am only 54 years old, yet I have actually already chosen my last white dress. It’s the one that I will wear to my funeral. It may be an old one, but I think it’s perfect for the occasion.  The overwhelming diagnosis came to me 3 months ago, now I'm always longing for long life, everything is now uncertain.  But I realized that the most important thing about death is to ensure that you leave this world a little better than it was before you existed with your contributions. The way I’ve lived my life so far, my existence or more precisely the loss of it, will not matter because I have lived without doing anything special.  Before, there were so many things that occupied my mind. When I learned how much time I had l...

Without fear, we can’t have courage. We cannot act courageously in any situation unless we have something to protect, something to honor, something to prove, or something to commit to. There are two motivating forces to have courage, fear, and love. When we are afraid, we pull back from life. When we are in love, we open to all that life has to offer with passion, excitement, and acceptance. We need to learn to love ourselves, in all our glory and imperfections. If you're having a hard time seeing your way out of a situation, try modeling your behavior after someone else who's faced adversity. Uncertainty is the source of many fears. However, you can learn to tolerate uncertainty by gradually working it into your daily experience. This will increase your confidence and ability to handle uncertain situations, which will allow you to act with bravery. You’ll always be able to think of more reasons not to take a chance than reasons to go for it, and there’s a reason for that. We a...

A good fight for my future. A Journey of Faith, Love, Hope, Victory! Happy Team! Laban Tayo Sol Team! I am grateful looking back over a year ago, 365 days have gone in a row, and I am fighting for a good fight by the grace of God I was able to overcome a lot for the 1st time in my life. After the recovery from surgery, I need to submit myself to an Oncologist to complete my recovery. Get ready for the next battle. I lift this battle to the Lord, he will take my steps according to his time and pace. Let me share with all my courageous classmates in all parts of the world, a simple yet incredible discovery diagnosing with big "C". This is how I started to understand how powerful our unspoken thoughts, that leads me to God's plan in my life, submission of my faith that God lead me to my anointed , Oncologist to continue the process of my healing and value the importance of a good fight.  I learned a lot in this journey and it all started in one simple step ...

Tony, wakes me up with his wonderful news that the 2nd reading today is really meant and timely for me. "The Will of God." God's Will for all is that we come to know Jesus and believe. Jesus is asking us to accept His invitation and to give up control of our life to Him. Jesus is asking us to trust him fully, in full surrender, to lead us and help us.  God, speaks to us through His Holy Spirit and through dreams, visions, and our thoughts. God speaks through preachers and teachers, but He can also speak through our spouse, kids, friends, and even enemies. God uses human channels to speak words of prophecy, tongues, and interpretation and words of wisdom and knowledge. I will start with the fact that I am free in Christ, by the Blood and the Cross of Jesus. And now, having been set free, I can engage myself in all kinds of wonderful relationships, projects, and adventures in fulfilling God's purpose for my life. So help me God.  Don't quit someone is praying for yo...

Today is another special day for me to celebrate. Happy Birthday to my dearest wonderful Tony. You are the greatest blessing to many and I thank God every day that he put you in my life. You are always the one pushing me to my limits. You are always the one who tells me it will all be alright. With your endless love and support, I became the strongest woman. You are my everything. I always pray and lift all our wishes in this life and after. May my simple gift of love and prayers be with you always. Lord, bless my husband and all his prayers and wishes to come true, the way it is good for him. You created a completely mannered young gentleman to our son. Your legacy remains. A man of few words is yet full of wisdom and gentleness. From my grateful heart, let me love you and Andreij for the rest of my life. Have a wonderful day dearest. We love you here, there, and everywhere. Tony Celebrates 62nd Birthday YouTube Video Tony's Birthday Message YouTube...

I sometimes have to look back, to see how far our journey has taken us. I wake up early today. Good, happy, excited to show my pure joy to my husband, having my contagious smile is a gift from God even I don't look pleasant physically to look at recently, I still believe that beauty is in the eye of the beholder. I had a chance to think about how wonderful life is, to know that in this trying time, my husband is being supported by his siblings. They always remember me and Tony. From my heart, it is very important to me. I appreciate all your kind and genuine love and support. Thank you so much to you lord, for giving me Tony and our family united in one prayer. A random act of kindness, no matter how small, can make a tremendous impact on someone else's life. "C" can touch me, but not my soul, neither my thoughts nor my grateful heart. I choose to believe in my heart that I am meant to live a life full of passion, purpose, magic, and miracles. So help me God to keep m...

Love is all that really matters. Holy God, thank you for another day. It is within my hope in You that I am saved. I hope for what I do not see, I wait for it with patience. Father, I wait patiently for my healing. Remove all cancer cells out of my body and never let them return again. Bless my medicines, our medicines, my doctor, and nurses. I pray that You give me divine strength to endure the race and to survive this journey. I also pray for my classmates in this journey. Amen. Romans 8:24-25 Dear Lord, the scripture states that You sent out Your word and healed them. You rescued them from the grave. Father, hear my cries and rescue me from the grave. I put my trust in You, I also have hope in You that I will be saved and remove all cancer cells in my body, bless my medicines for my treatment so it can help to heal me, but, Lord, it is You who will save me. It is You who can make me whole again. Have Your divine way within me so that I can be at peace once again. Amen. Psalm 107:...

It's a sunny Sunday, I wake up a little late today. I feel good, happy, and grateful. Thank you, Tony, for this awesome shot.  Lord, let me keep a good attitude while I am here in the waiting room. Help me stay faithful in this waiting room, honoring You. I don’t have to make it happen, You will make it happen for me. That in all things God may be glorified.