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What Are The Meaning Of The Holy Child Jesus And Our Lady Of The Rosary In Dreams!

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It's been a year today, now I understand completely the meaning of my dreams. It takes a year for me to write my personal proof that Jesus, Mama Mary, Saint Joseph, All the Angels, and Saints are all along with me side by side in my roller-coaster journey. Learning a lot of things is never too late for me to really understand by heart how faith can see us through.  I am alive, I am breathing and feeling better by the grace of God with the help of my Oncology Doctor and his miraculous medicines, Nurses' care, My family, and very close friends who sincerely love and supporting me and my family in many ways. I am grateful to my husband, my son, our siblings, my best friends for always finding a cure to help me continue. Wala silang pinang-hihinayangan, at sa lahat ng oras na nakikita nila akong bumubuti ay tunay na ramdam ko ang kasiyahan mula sa kanilang mga puso.  Let me share something very special to me, ang pakiramdam ko ngayon ay bumalik na ako sa tamang tema ng aking katawa

The Unveiling Of My Baby Hair!

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To God be all the glory! Yehey! Madami na ulit hair ko, though bungi-bungi pa kilay ko ayus na rin. If ever, balding returns I think I can handle it more bravely. Wink! My husband noticed that my hair is increasing in volume and he never forget to touch my hair and remind me that it is a sign of life. Behind his back, I always felt my tears down on my cheeks just knowing that I am really gaining back my hair. It's like a baby in my mother's womb that waiting for the exact number of days to complete me and be born.  I just realize that I love short hair on me. My new baby hair or Virgin hair turns soft, wavy, and silky. This gives me a little fun to consider my new look, seems I want to try new looks as my hair gets longer and makes it feel more fun rather than pain (though it definitely can be). I tried to treat each length as to if I had a new haircut and was learning to restyle it. But I love it this short for many practical reasons like it's easy maintenance and I fee

Healing Prayer, Healing Doctor and Medical Healing Works Together!

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According to this passage from the Bible, when we are sick we should pray to the Lord AND call the doctor, for in many cases it may be that the Lord will use the physician as the primary source of healing. The key is to let our Lord be in charge, and not dictate to Him the ways in which you want Him to help you. Let Him use all the means at His disposal-we are just to trustfully surrender to His care: "Cast all your care on the Lord, for He cares for you" ( I Peter 5:7). Both healing prayer and medical care, in the end, all come down to that little prayer at the bottom of the Image of the Divine Mercy: 'Jesus, I trust in You." In other words, "Jesus, I completely entrust myself to You. I hand over my whole condition to You (body, mind, and spirit) for strength and guidance, and for being made whole again according to Your will because I trust completely in Your merciful love for me, which always greater than I can ask, or even imagine." We see this reflecte

For Every Heart That Listens, There Is A Voice That Speaks!

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I wake up very early today. Bright sunshine makes me smile. The breeze makes me calm and thinks about how far I've been in my roller coaster journey. "Kahit gaano katagal ang gabi, darating din ang umaga." It's been a year now, The 1st time in my life is scary but I never let fear stop me from doing the right thing. These past years I've learned a lot. No school needed to learn the exact value of time. Your heart will teach you in your own language. After a lot of asking, God speaks in the silence of my heart. Thank you, Lord. I was so overwhelmed with gratitude for what God had done, I am on my 19th Chemotherapy Cycle now and need to continue more treatment. If you will ask me how many more left? I still don't know. I still have a tumor, mass on my liver, and that I believe God can melt if he will. God has a plan for all of us. What matters to me now is that I am alive and my hair keeps growing. I always check it to make sure it's still there. That hair m

My Miraculous Medicines

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All medicines are miraculous. it can give you comfort when you are in pain it will take 1 tablet to go away. Chemo medicines are strong medicines to kill cancer cells as well as good cells, but those will certainly cure your cancer to go away little by little, and if it's God's will to heal you the soonest that is your miraculous bonus. All of them are God's blessing to all patients, doctors are taking care of our protocol to cure our disease with the help of these medicines. Yes all of them got side effects, instead of thinking about the bad, think more about the good side of it. My personal experience lead me to share more of my learnings to all cancer patients like me to submit themselves to your oncologist to help you continue a little more goodness in life as long as you live.  My very expensive medicines continue my life with comfort.  All these graces are coming from God. With all these instruments I was able to stand again and have precious moments with my husband,

Prayer 402 : Healthy Food

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Lord, God in heaven, Thank you so much, for my awesome Doctor Jorge, he assured me through my medicines not to lose my appetite. Thank you so much, for all these colorful food that glow before my eyes, bless this food to be healthy so it will cure and energizes my body. Make it yummy so I could finish all these healthy food prepared for me by my dearest Tony and Ate Malou. Amen

Healing Grace From Self Acceptance And Faith!

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Dear Jesus, son of God, have mercy on me, a sinner. Jesus Save me, love me, heal my body. I surrender my life to you. Guide me in all my small steps going to our greatest victory and tell me what to do as I continue. "Bahala na po kyo sa akin." I love you, Jesus. I love you, Mama Mary and Saint Joseph, please pray for me. Amen *Sol Dayo Albar* PRAYER TO ST. JOSEPH Over 1900 years old O St. Joseph whose protection is so great, so strong, so prompt before the Throne of God, I place in you all my interests and desires. O St. Joseph do assist me by your powerful intercession and obtain for me from your Divine Son all spiritual blessings through Jesus Christ, Our Lord; so that having engaged here below your Heavenly power I may offer my thanksgiving and homage to the Loving of Fathers. O St. Joseph, I never weary of contemplating you and Jesus asleep in your arms. I dare not approach you while He reposes near your heart. Press Him in my name and kiss His fine Head for me, and ask

Free Vitamin D, From A Morning Sun!

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Today, I had another pleasant morning to have the sunshine going inside our Master's bedroom. Recently it's not always sunny, most of the time it's a gloomy day with rain shower the whole day. Thank you, Vitamin D for making my skin red again. Vitamin D is free, why not take a lot of it and be thankful to God, how wonderful to received his freebies every day. God's message for me today: Isiah 30: 18-19 Thank you, Kim and Ganryu for always having me in our morning ritual. Kim is my buddy while having a Vitamin D ritual. "Lusog -lusog ng mga dede nya, punong puno ng milk." How wonderful to have my Ganryu for a year. "Naka one year old ka na bunso, naka one year na tayo kasama pa rin kita mag pa araw sa umaga. Salamat bunso." My Defender! Ate Lilia, gave me this plant long time ago. It's has a good sign for me. Sabi ni Tony, yesterday close pa ito, the whole night namukadkad siya, mabango at kakaiba, anong name kaya niya? Let me share my little stor

KRAS and NRAS Test at St. Luke's Hospital Quezon City!

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Today, Tony got my specimen at LPDH the staff there was cooperative. They call me right away after they finally prepare my slide disk and wax specimen for KRAS and NRAS test at St. Lukes. We need to pay the refundable deposit amount of PHP3,000.00 to get the specimen.  The same day we traveled from south to north. We arrive timely at St. Lukes Hospital. All went smooth and light. Thank you so much, for the guidance Lord. We need to wait 2 to 3 weeks for the result. In the meantime, t ime to get relaxation while waiting for the result.  There’s always a silver lining. My journey is not easy, I need to go on with so much patience, humbleness, positivity, prayers, and faith in all the things that we are doing. My health and my life is a big blessing, a priceless blessing. One day I will be completely healed and will be a blessing again to my family and loved ones and to all the people who love me as a blessing to their life.  I am grateful for all of your love, prayers, care, and support.

18th Cycle Chemotherapy Treatment (3rd Course)

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The 18th cycle is like my 18th Birthday. Today, January 5, 2021, is the 1st day to start my Stivarga. My doctor's protocol was changed for my 18th Chemo Cycle, the 3rd set of Chemo medicines combination of Stivarga.  January 11, 2021, I was not able to finish my 18th cycle due to severe side effects. After 6 days all chemo medicines are stopped. I am subject to another blood chem laboratory and scan test for further evaluation.  January 16, 2021, I need to see Doctor Ignacio for further evaluation of my physical condition. He gave us further instructions on what to do next to continue my treatment. Maraming Salamat po Doc Ignacio for not giving up to cure me. I sometimes lost my inner strength, but with your positive outlook on life and spirituality, I gain another wisdom.  I am grateful to Tony that he was able to manage all my side effects. I am really in my worst situation then but he remains calm, prayerful, loving, supportive, and positive. Big thanks to my big sister Phine, f

My Hair Regrowth And that's A Sign Of Life

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They do say you appreciate the simple things a lot more with cancer.  For the first month of my 2nd set of new medicines I wore a different wig. My family and close friends thought it was great when I showcased Blondie, Sportie, Cutie and Kikay around (I put names on my wig). But the wigs were hot and uncomfortable if you dont have any hair at all and I feared I was slowing my hair growth by covering my scalp. So I ditched the wigs, unless I have official important appointments. It took me weeks to pluck up the courage to stop wearing my wig (also hot and itchy) around, but eventually I unveiled my naked scalp with my uneven sprouting hairs and bald crown, and skulked self-consciously around our home avoiding people’s gaze. One of my sissy used to call me via FB with camera, she requested to me to please always put my hijab since she's not used of seeing me like a talking egg. Hehehe. Braving my head was terrifying. Thanks to my compassionate Oncology Doctor for sharing his own sto

Live Day By Day, One At A Time!

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Read More:  Facebook Memories "Journey of Love, Faith, Hope, and Rainbow" October 15, 2019  In case I die unexpectedly, and I will be gone forever, let my simple thoughts are yours, for as long as someone cares I will always live in their hearts.  I am only 54 years old, yet I have actually already chosen my last white dress. It’s the one that I will wear on my funeral. It may be an old one, but I think it’s perfect for the occasion.  The overwhelming diagnosis came to me 3 months ago, now I'm always longing for long life, everything is now uncertain.  But I realized that the most important thing about death is to ensure that you leave this world a little better than it was before you existed with your contributions. The way I’ve lived my life so far, my existence or more precisely the loss of it, will not matter because I have lived without doing anything special.  Before, there were so many things that occupied my mind. When I learned how much time I had left, everythin

There Is No Courage Without Fear

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Without fear, we can’t have courage. We cannot act courageous in any situation unless we have something to protect, something to honor, something to prove, or something to commit to. There are two motivating forces to have courage, fear and love. When we are afraid, we pull back from life. When we are in love, we open to all that life has to offer with passion, excitement, and acceptance.  We need to learn to love ourselves, in all our glory and imperfections. If you're having a hard time seeing your way out of a situation, try modeling your behavior after someone else who's faced adversity. Uncertainty is the source of many fears. However, you can learn to tolerate uncertainty by gradually working it into your daily experience. This will increase your confidence and ability to handle uncertain situations, which will allow you to act with bravery. You’ll always be able to think of more reasons not to take a chance than reasons to go for it, and there’s a reason for that. We are

On My Way To Recovery!

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A good fight for my future. A Journey of Faith, Love, and Hope. I am grateful looking back over a year ago, 365 days has gone in a row, and I am fighting for a good fight by the grace of God I was able to overcome a lot of 1st time in my life. After the recovery from surgery, I need to submit myself to an Oncologist for the completion of my health recovery. Get ready for the next battle. I lift this battle to the Lord, he will take my steps according to his time and pace. Let me share with all my courageous classmates in all parts of the world, a simple yet incredible discovery diagnosing with big "C". This is how I started to understand how powerful our unspoken thoughts, that leads me to God's plan in my life, submission of my faith that God lead me to my anointed , Oncologist to continue the process of my healing and value the importance of a good fight. I learned a lot in this journey and all started in one simple step "Acceptance" It is