For Every Heart That Listens, There Is A Voice That Speaks!

- March 11, 2021

I wake up very early today. Bright sunshine makes me smile. The breeze makes me calm and thinks about how far I've been in my roller coaster journey. "Kahit gaano katagal ang gabi, darating din ang umaga." It's been a year now, The 1st time in my life is scary but I never let fear stop me from doing the right thing. These past years I've learned a lot. No school needed to learn the exact value of time. Your heart will teach you in your own language. After a lot of asking, God speaks in the silence of my heart. Thank you, Lord.

I was so overwhelmed with gratitude for what God had done, I am on my 19th Chemotherapy Cycle now and need to continue more treatment. If you will ask me how many more are left? I still don't know. I still have a tumor, a mass on my liver, and that I believe God can melt if he will. God has a plan for all of us. What matters to me now is that I am alive and my hair keeps growing. I always check it to make sure it's still there. That hair makes me grow more in faith even my diagnosis makes me crazy as long as my hair grows that means I am alive and breathing.

As I began my encounter with God. I felt God speak loud and clear a short message that held life-altering repercussions. Three powerful, commanding words: "Go and share!"

For every heart that listens, there is a voice that speaks. There is a door that opens, to every soul that seeks. To those who ask the promise, is that they shall receive and the gift of grace is given to all those who believe.

Fear immediately overwhelmed me at what I thought God might be asking. I began to question God, "Surely You can't mean share my story about my terrible skin rashes and horrible balding and many more that includes losing my self-confidence, Lord. Surely You don't mean go and share what I prefer to keep secret." Yet, that is exactly what He meant. And I didn't like it.

My skin is no longer the same, but Godsend Doctor Dra. Nenita Lorenzo-Alberto made it back again. She even gave me some free medicine and there was a time she gifts me some amount. What a blessing to have a doctor like her. She knew what I need without my asking.

I didn't want to go, much less share. I didn't want to be transparent or vulnerable. I gratefully accepted His forgiveness and healing, but I wasn't ready to accept His call to give me a purpose. The woman who was hiding in a smile behind all tears, fears, disappointment, cowardness, irritable mood, a lot of similar feelings that hits me to break down many times. A woman who covers her bald head and doesn't want to face the mirror at times is not an easy daily thing for me.

I am not used to pain, for those who knew me knew they know that. I cannot tolerate any kind of pain. God never wastes our pain. Only we do that. God has a plan for a great purpose and a beautiful future for all who believe in Him. Not despite our past, but because of it. People can deny Christ, dispute Scripture, and ignore prophecy, but they cannot deny, dispute, or ignore God's transformational power in someone's life.

Our stories of pain, adversity, and overcoming in Christ are meant to serve as a testimony of God's faithfulness and power, evidence that God really can take what the devil meant for evil and use it for good. I've since learned it is always God's desire for us to go and share our stories, whether we want to or not.

Lord, help me find the courage and the desire to share what You have done in my life these past years. Turn my past into my purpose and refuse to let my pain be for nothing. In Jesus' Name, Amen.

I am an ordinary wife who enjoys my family. All of a sudden I become a statue when I've learned that I have Cancer, and on top of it was the worst, it's Stage 4.

If you're in my shoes? How will you react to that kind of prognosis? How can you ask for more if you heard Cancer? What more can you think of more than your family above yourself?

Let me share my roller coaster journey in my video clips. It's about how important for Cancer Patient to submit themselves to adjuvant Chemotherapy Treatment. It's about God's invitation to us to be more closer to him. It's about our faith in God, learning to let God conduct our life in his way, not our way.

Chemotherapy is a miraculous medicine to cure cancer. I strongly believe God gave us this medicine to keep our faith in him. I honestly believe that God is behind my medicines and working on me while I am ongoing treatment. True and unconditional love was felt at all times.

Do you know that I am always nervous each time I will go to my chemo? I keep my prayers and while I am on my intravenous medicines I prayed for my prayer warrior personal intention. Suddenly I can feel the calmness in my heart, I am floating and feel very sleepy. The nurse told me, they didn't put anything to consider my sleepy things and drowsiness, but honestly, I am really very sleepy.

I now understand when my Doctor Jorge Ignacio, Cancer Specialist told me once, "I know you have a lot of questions in mind. Sometimes God is teaching us in a way that is best for us to understand." He is a man of wisdom. Godsend Doctor that all of us his patients need to understand the terrible sickness with kindness. Yes, spiritual cleansing is also important. I've learned the hard way with love. The true and sincerest meaning of devotion.

I was very weak, frail, and look very old when I started my 1st Chemo due to my previous operation. I was told to live not long at all. In my mind, OMG! I only got a few days, weeks, or months to live??? Crazy thoughts bother me every day, seems I am dying ahead of my time. Look at me, it's the other way around. God is good. He loves me unconditionally. He turns things around for me.

God is merciful. God forgive me and let me continue my life. I never understand how it happened, but I am alive. I will never forget the love of God. He made me whole. He made things for me in his most special way so I will be happier. I love seeing my loved ones happier because I am coping and not giving up. Little miracles happen every day. As the days go by, weeks, months, year passes by I am here writing to you now. My grateful heart will forever thank and praise God with all my heart and soul.

God is our great healer, our Godsend doctor is used to be his conduit our miraculous medicines are used to cure us. I think I will never forget Doctor Gorge Ignacio for the rest of my life. I highly recommend him to all Cancer Patients out there. He always finds a remedy to cure me and all his patients to continue. When I am in pain he never failed to give me a remedy and more to console me with his medicinal jokes. He is funny in a way, but I learned to know the importance of his jokes to my soul. I am more calm and funny now when I talk about Cancer. Yes, I got a big C-Christ in me so why will I worry. Christ will take care of me and He won this battle for me a long time ago.

It's also about how important for a husband to be on my side and help me throughout, in and out of my fear, and many things. My husband Tony pushes my limits and makes me strong. He gave me 1101% of his patience and resources to give me a cure and extend my life. He is preparing my soul for eternity and preparing me to detach myself from earthly things. God is the most eligible matchmaker. He gave me my best husband because he knew what our future will be like.

Let me share with you about my sister's unconditional love, siblings, close friends, and loved ones' all kind of support and concern for me, for my husband Tony, and for my son Andreij. All of them are God's gift hem to my life. They keep me and my family on this roller coaster journey. If not with them, we cannot do so much.

The fight is not always easy in all aspects, who knows how long can we live with or without cancer? But for me, the most important thing is I've learned to love every minute of my life. I learned to differentiate the sincerest love that gives.

I choose to create a wonderful memory for all people close to my heart. I am grateful to experience the genuine love you gift me no matter what I am. Let me tell you all, and assure all of you that you never failed to show me love and concern. I knew it by heart, and indeed all those make me happy and have this fight a good fight. I want you all to know how hard this battle is in all aspects but being around with your love and prayers I am moving forward to our nearest victory. Surely, I will remember you all for always and eternity.

Jeremiah 29:11, God says: "For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."

Me and My Little Fur Healer, Ganryu Hope!

"Kahit gaano katagal ang gabi, darating din ang umaga."

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Thank you, Lord!

What is Cancer?

Cancer refers to any one of many diseases characterized by the development of abnormal cells that divide uncontrollably and can infiltrate and destroy normal body tissue. Cancer often has the ability to spread throughout your body. Cancer is the second-leading cause of death in the world.

Once again, thank you for taking the time to read this blog. To be continued (I will get back again from time to time to continue my story. I'll be working seriously to get back my energy the soonest.)

Click the link to read more on my Chemo Journal:

CHEMO 1

1st Cycle Chemotherapy Treatment (1st Course) Prayers And Good Energy For A Vast Life-changing Experience!

CHEMO 2

2nd Cycle Chemotherapy Treatment (1st Course) A Day Of Prayer Offered For The Feast Of Santo Niño!

CHEMO 3

CHEMO 4

4th Cycle Chemotherapy Treatment (1st Course)

CHEMO 5

5th Cycle Chemotherapy Treatment (1st Course)

CHEMO 6

CHEMO 7