Diary of Love, Faith, Hope, and Victory!

To God be all the glory! Yehey! Madami na ulit hair ko, though bungi-bungi pa kilay ko ayus na rin. If ever, balding returns I think I can handle it more bravely. Wink! My husband noticed that my hair is increasing in volume and he never forget to touch my hair and remind me that it is a sign of life. Behind his back, I always felt my tears down on my cheeks just knowing that I am really gaining back my hair. It's like a baby in my mother's womb that waiting for the exact number of days to complete me and be born.  I just realize that I love short hair on me. My new baby hair or Virgin hair turns soft, wavy, and silky. This gives me a little fun to consider my new look, seems I want to try new looks as my hair gets longer and makes it feel more fun rather than pain (though it definitely can be). I tried to treat each length as to if I had a new haircut and was learning to restyle it. But I love it this short for many practical reasons like it's easy maintenance and I feel ...

According to this passage from the Bible, when we are sick we should pray to the Lord AND call the doctor, for in many cases it may be that the Lord will use the physician as the primary source of healing. The key is to let our Lord be in charge, and not dictate to Him the ways in which you want Him to help you. Let Him use all the means at His disposal-we are just to trustfully surrender to His care: "Cast all your care on the Lord, for He cares for you" ( I Peter 5:7). Both healing prayer and medical care, in the end, all come down to that little prayer at the bottom of the Image of the Divine Mercy: 'Jesus, I trust in You." In other words, "Jesus, I completely entrust myself to You. I hand over my whole condition to You (body, mind, and spirit) for strength and guidance, and for being made whole again according to Your will because I trust completely in Your merciful love for me, which always greater than I can ask, or even imagine." We see this reflecte...

I wake up very early today. Bright sunshine makes me smile. The breeze makes me calm and thinks about how far I've been in my roller coaster journey. "Kahit gaano katagal ang gabi, darating din ang umaga." It's been a year now, The 1st time in my life is scary but I never let fear stop me from doing the right thing. These past years I've learned a lot. No school needed to learn the exact value of time. Your heart will teach you in your own language. After a lot of asking, God speaks in the silence of my heart. Thank you, Lord. I was so overwhelmed with gratitude for what God had done, I am on my 19th Chemotherapy Cycle now and need to continue more treatment. If you will ask me how many more are left? I still don't know. I still have a tumor, a mass on my liver, and that I believe God can melt if he will. God has a plan for all of us. What matters to me now is that I am alive and my hair keeps growing. I always check it to make sure it's still there. That ...

All medicines are miraculous. it can give you comfort when you are in pain it will take 1 tablet to go away. Chemo medicines are strong medicines to kill cancer cells as well as good cells, but those will certainly cure your cancer to go away little by little, and if it's God's will to heal you the soonest that is your miraculous bonus.  All of them are God's blessing to all patients, doctors are taking care of our protocol to cure our disease with the help of these medicines. Yes all of them got side effects, instead of thinking about the bad, think more about the good side of it.  My personal experience leads me to share more of my learnings with all cancer patients like me to submit themselves to your oncologist to help you continue a little more goodness in life as long as you live. My very expensive medicines continue my life with comfort. All these graces are coming from God. With all these instruments I was able to stand again and have precious moments with my husban...

It was one morning when we're supposedly going to a certain place, but things change for us, Mama Mary guide us to see her Miraculous place in an unknown place where we only see signs along the way and we just follow. It was a long and winding road to start with but if you are courageous enough you will trust your instinct and you will be thankful that God shows you the place which is not for everyone to see. Along with this journey, my thoughts are to be with my sisters. I don't know how much time I still have so I just come with them into my mind Cancer is just a chapter in my life and not the whole story so I must make the most of my journey thrusting God and Mama Mary's way for me. Finally, we arrived at the place. Peaceful, walang katao tao. Pero meron pala. So you need to go down stairs, mahaba and hagdan pababa and along the way makikita mo and simple story through images. Holy Family and unang bubungad, then ang Our Lady of Lourdes, then may makikita kang isang mali...

Lord, God in heaven, Thank you so much, for my awesome Doctor Jorge, he assured me through my medicines not to lose my appetite. Thank you so much, for all these colorful food that glow before my eyes, bless this food to be healthy so it will cure and energize my body. Make it yummy so I could finish all this healthy food prepared for me by my dearest Tony and Ate Malou. Amen Once again, thank you for taking the time to read this blog. It is what it is today due to your comments and support. As always, do share your comments with other readers in the name of open and honest discussion.

The battle is not yours, it's the Lord's. Whenever you feel like giving up, remember that your strength comes from the Lord. Photo Taken on May 2019 at Melbourne, Australia Dear Jesus, son of God, have mercy on me, a sinner. Jesus Save me, love me, heal my body. I surrender my life to you. Guide me in all my small steps going to our greatest victory and tell me what to do as I continue. "Bahala na po kyo sa akin." I love you, Jesus. I love you, Mama Mary and Saint Joseph, please pray for me. Amen *Sol Dayo Albar* PRAYER TO ST. JOSEPH Over 1900 years old O St. Joseph whose protection is so great, so strong, so prompt before the Throne of God, I place in you all my interests and desires. O St. Joseph do assist me by your powerful intercession and obtain for me from your Divine Son all spiritual blessings through Jesus Christ, Our Lord; so that having engaged here below your Heavenly power I may offer my thanksgiving and homage to the Loving of Fathers. O St. Joseph, I ...

Today, I had another pleasant morning to have the sunshine going inside our Master's bedroom. Recently it's not always sunny, most of the time it's a gloomy day with rain shower the whole day. Thank you, Vitamin D for making my skin red again. Vitamin D is free, why not take a lot of it and be thankful to God, how wonderful to receive his freebies every day.  God's message for me today: Isiah 30: 18-19 Thank you, Kim and Ganryu for always having me in our morning ritual. Kim is my buddy while having a Vitamin D ritual. "Lusog -lusog ng mga dede nya, punong puno ng milk." How wonderful to have my Ganryu for a year. "Naka one year old ka na bunso, naka one year na tayo kasama pa rin kita mag pa araw sa umaga. Salamat bunso." My Defender! Ate Lilia, gave me this plant long time ago. It's has a good sign for me. Sabi ni Tony, yesterday close pa ito, the whole night namukadkad siya, mabango at kakaiba, anong name kaya niya? Let me share my little stor...

Today, Tony got my specimen at LPDH the staff there was cooperative. They call me right away after they finally prepare my slide disk and wax specimen for KRAS and NRAS test at St. Lukes's. We need to pay the refundable deposit amount of PHP3,000.00 to get the specimen.  The same day we traveled from south to north. We arrive timely at St. Lukes Hospital. All went smooth and light. Thank you so much, for the guidance Lord. We need to wait for 2 to 3 weeks for the result. In the meantime, t ime to get relaxation while waiting for the result.  There’s always a silver lining. My journey is not easy, I need to go on with so much patience, humbleness, positivity, prayers, and faith in all the things that we are doing.  My health and my life are a big blessing, a priceless blessing. One day I will be completely healed and will be a blessing again to my family and loved ones and to all the people who love me as a blessing to their life. I am grateful for all of your love, prayer...

Be strong, courageous Sol, I understand, preparing for the unknown is not easy. Give me the strength to accept the things I cannot change. The Serenity Prayer God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change. Courage to change the things I can, and wisdom to know the difference. Living one day at a time. Enjoying one moment at a time. Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace. Trusting that He will make all things right if I surrender to His Will. So that I may be reasonably happy in this life And supremely happy with Him Forever and ever in the next. Amen. Salamat sa guidance Lord. Stage 4 cancer is the most severe form of cancer. Metastatic cancer is another name for stage 4 cancer because the disease has usually spread far in the body, or metastasized. Stage 4 cancer is the severest form of cancer. It has the highest risk of mortality. However, stage 4 cancer is not always terminal. God bless me, my husband, my son, my doctor, nurses, and all the people who gave me t...

The 18th cycle is like my 18th Birthday. Today, January 5, 2021, is the 1st day to start my Stivarga. My doctor's protocol was changed for my 18th Chemo Cycle, the 3rd set of Chemo medicines combination of Stivarga.  January 11, 2021, I was not able to finish my 18th cycle due to severe side effects. After 6 days all chemo medicines are stopped. I am subject to another blood chem laboratory and scan test for further evaluation.  January 16, 2021, I need to see Doctor Ignacio for further evaluation of my physical condition. He gave us further instructions on what to do next to continue my treatment. Maraming Salamat po Doc Ignacio for not giving up to cure me. I sometimes lost my inner strength, but with your positive outlook on life and spirituality, I gain another wisdom.  I am grateful to Tony that he was able to manage all my side effects. I am really in my worst situation then but he remains calm, prayerful, loving, supportive, and positive. Big thanks to my big siste...

They do say you appreciate the simple things a lot more with cancer.  For the first month of my 2nd set of new medicines, I wore a different wig. My family and close friends thought it was great when I showcased Blondie, Sportie, Cutie, and Kikay around (I put names on my wig). But the wigs were hot and uncomfortable if you don't have any hair at all and I feared I was slowing my hair growth by covering my scalp. So I ditched the wigs unless I have official important appointments. It took me weeks to pluck up the courage to stop wearing my wig (also hot and itchy) around, but eventually, I unveiled my naked scalp with my uneven sprouting hairs and bald crown and skulked self-consciously around our home avoiding people’s gaze. One of my sissies used to call me via FB with a camera, she requested to me to please always put on my hijab since she's not used to seeing me as a talking egg. Hehehe. Braving my head was terrifying. Thanks to my compassionate Oncology Doctor for sharing ...