Diary of Love, Faith, Hope, and Victory!

1st Wednesday and my 1st Chemo tablets set for this year were delivered today. Chemo tablets are just one kind of my many medicines per set per cycle.  My 30th Chemo cycle will be my 1st set for this year. Getting ready na po ako Doc.  Btw, na inspire ako sa nag deliver kanina, gabi na pero nandito siya for my medicines. Mahina lng ang boses niya, halos di namin madinig baka nahihiya siya, dahil kinakahulan siya ng dogs pagtawag niya, sasagot ng tahol ang dogs. Na imagine nyo ba ang sound na ganoon, cute diba. Little things like this make me happy, that someone I don't know personally cares. Salamat sa lahat ng mga tulong, pagmamahal, at effort ng ating team. Important for me ang malasakit at pagmamahal ninyong lahat, ang pagmamahal ni God ay tunay na unconditional. God works in mysterious way sa paraan na masusurpresa tayo para maging mas masaya tayo. To God be all the glory! 

2 month-old Ganryu, my fur healer puppy. Was born on my 1st Chemo Cycle January 2, 2020 Ang pagkakaroon ng kanser ay isa sa mga pinakamabigat na karanasan na maaaring mapagdaanan ng isang tao sa kanyang buhay. Ang pagkabalisa at pag-aalala ay nagsisimula na kahit sa paghihinala pa lamang ng pagkakaroon ng kanser. Ito ay nagiging mas mabigat habang pinagdaraanan ng pasyente ang proseso ng diagnosis at pagpapagamot. Ang pasaning ito ay hindi lamang nakakaapekto sa pasyente kundi pati na rin sa kanyang pamilya at mga kaibigan. Para makapagpakita ng suporta sa isang pasyenteng may kanser, anu-ano ang mga bagay na maaaring gawin ng isang taong nagmamalasakit? 1. Ihanda ang sarili para mapagtuunan ng pansin ang pasyente. Tantsahin ang mga sariling emosyon bago humarap sa pasyente. 2. Magkaroon ng kaalaman tungkol sa sakit ng pasyente at intindihin ang pananaw ng pasyente tungkol dito. 3. Maghanda para sa mga pagbabagong maaaring mangyari sa pasyente tulad ng pangangayayat o p...

Today, be thankful and think about how rich you are. Your family is priceless, Your time is gold, and your health is wealth. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. I wake up at 1:30am, I am hungry, and yes! I feel better than yesterday. I prepare my midnight food, reheated baked macaroni, and ensure by myself. It was awesome. I started eating while browsing my timeline memories. Ang dami pala ganap ang December 14, sa aking buhay. 10th Birthday ng aking apo Nicolisha at 7th Birthday ni Laika Husky today. Also, anniversary namin ng aking anak na si Andreij to be in China for the 1st time.

Jesus King of Mercy I trust in you! Face your fear so the shadow will go behind. It's easy to get afraid but my Lord, Jesus Christ put courage and hope in my heart. He is fighting for me and he is always with me. (Exodus 14:14) November 30, 2021 1st CT Scan comparison to my previous CT Scan October 2021, after 3 months of my IMRT completion. My Liver CT Scan is for my every after 4th Avastin 400mg IV infusion monitoring development and for my next chemotherapy cycle 29th treatment. YouTube Video Thank you so much, father God for the smooth and happy CT Scan procedure today. I may not understand all your messages for me, but I always felt your healing manifestation in my heart. Today I experience something very new. I felt the coldness of the IV Contrast while it's running inside my veins. At first, I thought it was leaking and when the Radiologist check it it's not and I check it too he is right. Whatever it is, it's not the normal way. I remember it was supposed to be ...

Let's mark this day, 1st day of October 2021. My 1st appearance as a Cancer warrior in Bro. Adrian TGIF segment, Healing with Rev. Fr. Joseph Faller. Eucharistic miracles happen that bring healing to our body, healing to our sight. The sign of the Eucharist really points to his presence. And the grace that flows from his presence makes wonders happen. “Prayer is not asking. Prayer is putting oneself in the hands of God, at His disposition, and listening to His voice in the depth of our hearts.” Mother Teresa There is always a first time, and for me, 1st time is always unforgettable. Today Brother Adrian Panganiban gave me a precious gift. Thank you so much Bro A. for the kindness and sincere friendship. It's priceless indeed like you. In this hour, Jesus Christ our God is 1st in everything. it's Mama Marys's month October, the month of the Holy Rosary. I myself am a Marian Devotee and I consider this day and month a special one. Lord, look upon me with eyes of mercy. Ma...

Our awesome God gifts me his awesome  Cancer specialist Doctor Jorge Ignacio  and on top of his good heart, He grants me another awesome Radio Oncologist Doctor Vicente Francisco Hizon Chairman of Radio Oncologist at Perpetual Hospital. They were able to help me have a possible remedy to relieve my pain, improve the quality of my life, and maybe by God's grace it can kill my Cancer DNA cells on that certain painful tumor on my abdominal muscles.  Today is my 56th Birthday and it's my 35th Radiation Treatment day here at Perpetual Hospital in Las Pinas. It's my Graduation Day. I personally ask Radio Oncology Doctor Vicente Francisco R. Hizon, MD. if I am already a candidate for graduation today and with a confident smile He answered me YES! You will graduate today you've finished your remedial class and today is your graduation day here at LINAC. I finished 35 days of radiation on my Right Rectus Abdominis Mass (Radiation 25 days / 200 daily dose/total of 5000 and Boost ...

Breathe in! breathe out! We do it 12-14 times a minute without thinking. This picture was taken at the Palace of Fine Arts, the year 2018  The Palace of Fine Arts in San Francisco is the last remaining structure from the 1915 Panama Pacific Exposition. Listed on the National Register of Historic Places, this classical-looking building is beautifully situated on a lagoon that reflects the mirror image on the surface of the calm water, while ducks and geese drift by. Breathing is a miracle we don’t stop to think about very much. We just do it. It keeps us alive. In the same amazing way, God has given us as Christians a way to “breathe spiritually” for our spiritual well-being. Spiritual breathing, like physical breathing, is a process of exhaling the impure and inhaling the pure. It can become a way of life. But the average Christian does not understand this concept and as a result lives on a spiritual roller coaster, controlling his or her own, life resulting in frustration. On our...

There are plenty of reasons to celebrate my husband, but it’s only his birthday one day of the year. Celebrating my husband doesn’t only mean that I see him, but that I hear him, too. Letting him know on his birthday shows I appreciate him for who he is even as life’s chaos pops up around every corner. Caramia Mango Cake! (Andreij's Gift for his Dad) Happy Birthday Engineer Antonio B. Albar, Nothing makes me happier than to wake up next to you, because I sincerely believe in you. All these years, you never let me falter in darkness especially when I was diagnosed with Cancer. You never run out of wisdom to heal me little by little I was able to understand the importance of acceptance and to do what is right. Life is precious and with you, I understand how much precious time and love I have received from God every day of my life. I love your smile, it means a lot to me. I love the way you encourage and believe in me. I love how strong and caring you are. I love your sense of humor a...

To God be all the glory! It's been 2 years ago today. Thank you so much, I love you all. Read more on the original post: https://www.facebook.com/photo?fbid=10214102073893395&set=a.10214035262103142 July 13, 2020 Affordable Nutritious Healthy Dragon fruit. Thank you so much  Isam Palanisamy ,  Carly Vill  for the free delivery. Once again, thank you for taking the time to read this blog. It is what it is today due to your comments and support. As always, do share your comments with other readers or in person in the name of open and honest discussion. I love you all.

2 years after my 1st ever Blood Transfusion! Simple Breakfast with my family to celebrate my 2 years old! 2 years old na ako for my 2nd life! Lord, kwentuhan po muna tayo before I sleep. Madaming blessing mo na po talaga sa akin. Thank you sa lahat and in advance. Alam mo po bang masaya ako sa araw araw. Gustong gusto ko pong magkaroon ng fresh vision for what breakthrough will look like in my life. With all your love, help me to pursue healing while I wait for my miracle cure every day. Show me how to rest right in the middle of the storm. Help me to enjoy the feast You prepare for me, right in the middle of the battlefield. I want my whole life to testify that there’s a God in heaven who knows my name and who will get me safely home when my time comes. Yung bang mapuno ako ng sigla with the wonder of Your love and power every day. I am determined to win this battle with You, Mama Mary, Saint Joseph, my husband, son, family, doctors, nurses, all the Angels, Saints, and those close to ...

It's been a year today, now I understand completely the meaning of my dreams. It takes a year for me to write my personal proof that Jesus, Mama Mary, Saint Joseph, All the Angels, and Saints are all along with me side by side in my roller-coaster journey. Learning a lot of things is never too late for me to really understand by heart how faith can see us through.  I am alive, I am breathing and feeling better by the grace of God with the help of my Oncology Doctor and his miraculous medicines, Nurses' care, My family, and very close friends who sincerely love and supporting me and my family in many ways. I am grateful to my husband, my son, our siblings, my best friends for always finding a cure to help me continue. Wala silang pinang-hihinayangan, at sa lahat ng oras na nakikita nila akong bumubuti ay tunay na ramdam ko ang kasiyahan mula sa kanilang mga puso.  Let me share something very special to me, ang pakiramdam ko ngayon ay bumalik na ako sa tamang tema ng aking kataw...

To God be all the glory! Yehey! Madami na ulit hair ko, though bungi-bungi pa kilay ko ayus na rin. If ever, balding returns I think I can handle it more bravely. Wink! My husband noticed that my hair is increasing in volume and he never forget to touch my hair and remind me that it is a sign of life. Behind his back, I always felt my tears down on my cheeks just knowing that I am really gaining back my hair. It's like a baby in my mother's womb that waiting for the exact number of days to complete me and be born.  I just realize that I love short hair on me. My new baby hair or Virgin hair turns soft, wavy, and silky. This gives me a little fun to consider my new look, seems I want to try new looks as my hair gets longer and makes it feel more fun rather than pain (though it definitely can be). I tried to treat each length as to if I had a new haircut and was learning to restyle it. But I love it this short for many practical reasons like it's easy maintenance and I feel ...