Diary of Love, Faith, Hope, and Victory!

To God be the glory! Let me share my Chemo Day.  First of all, thank you so much to my wonderful husband Tony, my fantastic caring sister Ate Malou, and Chit for having me today. Thank you to my caring and supportive Nurses Lira, Karla, and Mobi. I always owe you big time. Thank you, Doc Jorge Ignacio for always helping me to be a more obedient patient. Worthy for me to understand the pros and cons of everything in layman's terms. "Natatawa ako ng maalala ko advise sa akin ni Doc, "huwag ka na kasi iiyak." try ko nga agad yesterday, naiiyak pa rin ako talaga. Pero bakit nga ba ako naiiyak. Hehehe   May bago akong classmate, naawa ako kasi nabalian pa siya ng buto sa legs, pero masaya naman siya kausap. Sabi nya sa akin, "Naku, malalamapasan mo yan, kasama ko nga sa work same sayo stage 4 pa nga, nakalusot at buhay pa hanggang ngayon." Hehehe My Note: Lord, the words don’t even seem adequate to express the gratitude in my heart. You are more than I deserve, ...

May 10, 2020 Lord, I know you know my heart. It's hard for me to perfect everything nowadays, my life for almost a year is not a piece of joke. Grant me the wisdom to know how I will be living and loving my short or long life with. Let me be the new me, a much stronger, much more amazing woman than I am in the past. Let me embrace myself and learn to love myself, more now than ever. I’ve been through so much with my diagnosis, my treatment, and my fear. It’s natural for me to feel relief, to worry, and to be afraid of what the future holds even after my doctor tells me that there is a remedy and my life is moving on. It’s a sweet moment with a lot of bitter mixed in. I will never be the same person I was before. I’ve grown, learned, and become a new person. It's not easy to be with people around me who do not really understand my roller coaster journey. It’s alright to feel more than one emotion, and it’s all right to be afraid of what the future holds. Now, I l...